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i'm here. the happiest place in the earth. where smiles areas free as the air and troubles as clouded as mist. well, still feeling uneasy. why? i'm supposed to be relaxed and having fun. then why?

started working. i LIKE my colleagues! kuya ron, ate daisy and ate jam. dun forget chief. mwahaha! this post serves as a banner of my respect for them. really fun! they're forgiving and patient and fun. i know there's little chance they can read this bacaues of inadequacies but still, to their honour! however, work is so tiring! argh! had to stand for eight hours. and damn boring too! gosh, my cousin told me that working at the store was going to be a stampede but not likely! it's so boring. maybe i'm just starting to learn and they won't let me handle the heavy stuff. but i'm getting the hang of it. yesterday, time seemed to crawl. today, it walked. hopefully tomorrow will be blessed. it's my first work ever in my life. i mean officially. well not really but this is the closest.

i'm currently reading the book the alchemist by paulo coelho. i've attempted to read other books like lemony snicket's a series of unfortunate events [ya i know it's childish, but i like] and judith mcnaught's someone to watch over me. well the last two were too morbid so i had to stop. i like the alchemist because it's a rich book filled with wisdom. i think it's a bit philosophical. it's an encouraging book. goals, dreams and passion in life or shall we say, personal legend. very good book. but of course. a the title itself projects an anti-christian theme. that's what blind church leaders will say. though the main character, a boy named santiago is a christian or catholic. and also, the message of the book says that we should strive for what we want and the universe, including God, is arranged in a way so as to enable us to achieve our dreams. so obviously the church will condemn this as they will say that people should dream god's will not our will. i don't really care what the church says though.

before i was flying off, my cell leader came to send me off. she saw my judith mcnaught book and asked me to throw it away. in my opinion, what the church is doing right now is trying to isolate themselves from sins. however, what they should do is try to insulate themselves instead of to isolate. jesus walked with the lame and ate with sinners. then why are we trying to push these 'sinful' elements away? the world is immersed in sin and we can't escape that by isolating ourselves. we should insulate ourselves. for example, the fish. the fish lives in sea water, it is saline. yet how come when we eat the fish, it is not salty? in fact it is tasteless. we need to sprinkle some salt before eating or cooking! this is because the fish is insulated from sea water. that way it keeps itself pure. i the same way should we keep ourselves holy. not by condemning but by understanding. after we understand then can we preach. not judge or correct.

vivo

so, first time went to vivocity. IT WAS HUGE! i felt like i was walking forever and i didn't even round up the whole place! went with kaye aka kaya aka caveman aka sexyblingthing! mwahaha. and christie aka no taste aka wag. so anyways, i liked the place. I LIKE! think im going there a milion more times. i think the fact that it's new makes it exciting. as kaya and wag said. there are trillions of shops there!

it's not really a place for teenagers but i'm not complaining. firstly there are no mac, kfc, sweet talk or long john. only high class ex food. superdog, chicken rice shop, and bugerking. there are go india and others. restaurants were never heard before. it's the kinda places that you see in one secluded corner around town. so it's cool to try. the collection of clothing lines is amazing. warehouse, pull and bear, forever 21, topshop, levis, armani exchange, trucco, fendi, marks and spencers, diesel. but as long as there's zara i'm cool. there's no iced lemon tea or 77th street.so it's more mature. there's GV there and when we went, there was an opening ceremony so only invited guests where there. highclass i tell you. so it's more for mature [old] people. but i like. i dun really like going orchard cause it's too distributed.

walking with kaya and wag was fun. can't stop laughing lor. but i kept getting static electricity shocks when walking! beacuse of stupid shoes! so painful! and we got to stalk a guy. johnston [baby powder] wag's bf. he's so blur. he didn't know that we following around. it was for almost an hour and we got close a couple of time. after they bought their prom dresses we went to eat at banquet. then after a much confusing discusion on how to go home, we did go home.

must i elaborate on the events? i'll leave that to kaya and wag. but it was fun! only thing though, me and kaya only bought one pen. sigh. pathetic.

look at these!
stole it from kaya's blog!

step up

went to watch step up with youth at shaw in orchard. i like! the movie was good. casting was likeable. the whole cast can dance. like mario and radcliffe though they didn't bust any moves at all. the dancing was good and i'm impressed. ballet and hip hop. odd combi isn't it but refreshing. good flow. i like the movie cause i can relate. so overall; it was above average. seven out of ten maybe. bad point is, tatum's enunciation sucks. he barely opens his mouth. i noticed in his previous movies too.


after the movie. we walked around orchard. saw ethan ong. my jaw dropped. this kid is awesome! and cute. i think he was with his father and they prayed before the performance. he did the drums for "my redeemer lives" by hillsong. and after the song he went in front and bowed. so cute. then after that the father was like 'thank you for watching and God bless you'. it's a good service for a part but i wonder if they go hurting other religions and make a comotion in orchard. hopefully cause it's definitely a good way to share the gospel. jia you, christians!

went to cathay after that. played arcade. then they went to my house to play xbox. overall the day was fun except kerna backstab and scolded. sigh.

speaking of friendship, i dunno what to do now. hate decisions.

sentosa

cheryl's birthday is somewhere this week. went to sentosa to celebrate. didn't go into water though. hate the sea. i'd rather swim in a pool. anyways, sitting on the beach was nice. had to go under the shade cause it was freaking hot. went with ad and jermaine. ahlong and salome went later with water bombs and a cake for surprise. that stupid water bomb trick was stupid. firstly, cherly was already wet as she was swiming. and, we kerna scolded by the lifegaurd for attempting to destroy the ecosystem and creating havoc on the beach.

lots of pictures. more coming up.

so the big "O"s is finally over. and i feel like a bird. i can sit down and watch time's hand run around and not run againts time. the moment spent on beach was relaxing. the do-nothing activity was fun and rejuvinating. i don't think i'm desrving it totally but i'm claiming it anyways. can't wait to fly off.

waiting

i just finished my last paper for french. don't ask me how is it. no matter what i am confirmed that i will fail. sometimes it's easier to give up and say with confidence that you will fail than to do your best and wait for the result. when it turns out ok. ecstasy. if not, state of depression for months. the latter has a larger probability to happen so why try studying at all. waste time. we already spend a fourth of our time waiting.

youth performance

perit's sad. this world is sad. i mean come on, is there anything good abt this pile of shit? God created this place. why is it so filthy. is it because He let filthy humans to rule that's why it had come to this? so what will hell be? or imagine if animals rule the world.

i've always thought earth is the half way mark between heaven's paradise and hte pits of hell. a well balanced dimension. yin and yang. well, more like it moved closer to hell over the pass few millennium. oh no forgive me, it has always been. from cain, to babylon, to war and now, total chaos. we had found more and more ways to suck. divorce. crimes. discrimination. hatred. indifference. all has increased its magnitude. i'm not even gonna try to list it out here. i'm gonna fill up the World Wide Web.

why i am suddenly talking about this?
i can't wait for heaven.

i am just fustrated. with everything that is going on. o levels. church. family. friends. and what i am becoming.

i figure, i don't like myself much. not in terms of physical. i mean i want to alter some of it but... well i'm talking about how cold i'm becoming. sigh. becoming more apathetic toward people. i mean i had always been like that. not saying hi, waving a hand or even just a smile on my face when acquaintances pass by. suplada. conceited and stuck up. but it's not that. just shy and insecure. and i know some get the wrong impression. but it is becoming worse. and i lose on friendship because of that.i am becoming one of the people who is NOT trying to make the world a better place.

and also the way some of the people i know are facing life. really sad.

all the distortion in the world is created by us. and it backfires on us always. karma. i believe in it. but if you believe in karma means you don't believe in destiny. right. but i believe in destiny too. aiya.

i told you life's complicated

well well. i had just finished the damned performance. bad. they say it's too soft. but it's not out bloody fault. like we did our best and its because of the incompetent techs. the mic wasn't on i assume. the place was quite open so. but the applause was tremendous. esp and most from parents ofcourse. just because they know us and its our first. biased! i didn't like the whole thing do. boring. but the practise was fun. see now my sis is still singing the song. LAST SONG SYNDROME (LSS). here are the pics. so sorry. the actual on stage performance wasn't included. because all the pics only have my sis and me. so might as well not put it up. you have to get it from other people. haha.

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youth practise

i just realize i don't want to perform. its tomorrow! crap. i haven't memorised the lyrics. crap.

nadir

the "ear in ear out" technique

created by: eunice lacaste

this revolutionary technique, developed in 7000 bc, is an intense meditation technique designed to protect the hearing organ from any force that can cause any internal disrurbances. however, it appears that the majority of the current generation has mastered this technique through countless sessions, practises and excersises from their sincerely helpful parents. there are different styles of doing this. a few includes:

1. thinking of the guy next door - most effecient
2. sing a song inside your head - i suggest moby's retarded lyrics
3. try to count your mother's hair - visually of course

warning! possibility of memory loss and drooling disorder when excessively done.

PRESTIGE

postponed

created by: eunice lacaste

decided to post. after dog's years. certainly no one ever visits here anymore. so i have the liberty to post whatever i want.

well, halfway between o levels. so far, i think i'm doing ok. but every paper, i'm so nervous that i can't tie the stupid string in. it's just beacuse this is o levels. i want to get as many a1s as possible. not gonna happen but it's good to dream right? even my art paper sucked. i should take the installation down soon. i feel restless unless its taken down.

a week more to go.

i just ate candy floss today. bought from pasamalam. i really dun care if it's intoxicated with something else. this is the only way i can eat candy floss. where else can you buy candy floss. people had warned me about pasamalam and what possible filth that lies beneath the vendors' smile. i don't care much. i want it and i'm having it. candy floss!

ate with itchy today at long john silver. that itchy made me go to lot 1 just to eat! argh! and i bought i new earpiece. i reward for myself for studying hard -not srudying smart- this past few days.

talked to renee today. i wonder why these high class, chin up chest out stomach in ladies don't want to get married. i think they do not want anybody to dominate their life. feminists. they want to be in charge. always. and if your not up to standard, too bad. in my opinion, guys must be daunted by them! and the danger is, if they are too blind, they might just passed by mr right -in the flesh and in the face- without even noticing it. ms yee also another one. worse if possible. dun get me wrong. these people are phenomenal and esteemed. they hold prestige within the palm of their hands. but there comes a price. arrogance. indifference. looking down on their noses. no! they are not like that but they LOOK like it. happiness is only whole with a second half. hope cupid's reinforcements are on their way to singapore. or cyprus for that matter. ms yee is flying off today.

about another totally different slut
i wonder why she is so freaking irritating. i mean i try to like her. i try to look pass her flaws. but she just pisses me off! after a long cut off, the first time she did was bombard me with questions and lectures and stupid nonsense. why must The Relationship (not the relationship u know of) be strained because of her! i'm starting to hate so much of what she thinks is right and wrong. she and her stupid dispostion! can't He show her. cant He teach me to submt. why can't i just dumbly follow like a dog. i mean it's ok for me to live my life for someone else since i can't make a purpose out of it and since i know it's gonna be wasted in my own hands. why do i have to qn so much! sigh. guess i just can't submit to unreasonable and unjustified acts. duh! even my own mother finds me a handful. so what right does she have to think for me!

i think i shall retire for today. tomrrow is waiting.